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A note to self!

18 July 2022

It hurts, but that’s exactly what they want. These toxic people want to hurt you- they want you to feel ignored and helpless. When you seek their help- no matter how infrequent and trivial it is- it boosts their ego. They don’t want to help though, and they will do as much as they can to ignore you. Even if they do help you, they will make sure they exaggerate it in front of others and invalidate your capability. Even when you try to help them or give suggestions genuinely, they will invalidate it (cause it simply hurts their ego), even if they later have to follow the same suggestion.

They treat you unfairly because they want you to ask yourself- “why am I treated like this?” They will keep being unfair so that you feel wretched. Haven’t you noticed enough- that every time, when things seem to be going well – they are bothered and start picking up new issues to bother you with? Petty issues, big issues, issues that aren’t even related with you- all kinds of issues. If they don’t find any issue, they will try to act extra nice to others (in front of you) and deliberately treat you like an outsider so that you feel bad. They will exclude you. They will exclude you – in tasks, while sharing information and even miss you out in small occasions. They will praise others in front of you and try to make you jealous, just so that they can mess with your head. They will try to hide others’ flaws and shift all the blame on you. They will try to give credits, for tasks that you do, to others who didn’t do a thing (in front of you) to invalidate your efforts. Else they will anyhow try to create conflict- between you and your support system- so that you feel estranged, you become unhappy, and you suffer.

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